A lot of stuff has happened recently, which has made my level of trust go down a lot. I had problems trusting people in the first place, now it's got a lot worse, and I no longer know who I can trust, if anyone.

In recent weeks I've felt like I can't write anything personal in my OWN journal, as I've felt I don't know who the people reading are, and if I can trust them.
So haven't really updated on a lot of things that have been bothering me, or wrote any personal stuff.


I today realized that this isn't fair on me, and that if I keep all this stuff inside I'll just go into deep deppression again, and go all fucked up and stuff. And I don't want that. And I'm sure my family wouldn't want another death in the family so soon. :|


So I've decided to go back to my first ever Lj - mwandie. BUT I've only added a few people there... the people I know A LOT, have known forever, and know that I can trust with anything and everything.

I know this will make a lot of people angry, as it's like I don't trust them. But right now I'm at a stage in my life where I feel I can't trust anyone apart from the really close people. It's probably just paranoia and some part of deppression, but bleh... I can't be arst to go into it and explain it properly, no one will understand anyway.

I've opened up kizonk again, and will post all non personal entries there... so basically, I'll post all the sutff I've been posting in this journal recently, over there. As like I said, I haven't been able to post things on my mind and personal stuff here recently.



I'm a little annoyed as some peoples entries I really liked reading, and I'll miss that.
But right now, there's so much going on, and I really need people I can trust to talk to, and write personal things, before I blow up from keeping it all locked inside.



I've made a christmas card post in kizonk, and will still send people the cards who commented on here. :)
Hope no one takes this personally. :)




Mandie
xxx

Just a public post to let the whole world know that...
My lj friends are AWESOME!

Seriously. I'm the laziest person in the world and rarely ever comment, but my good old lj friends still comment on my entries despite me rarely commenting on theres! :) How awesome and nice is that? :)

:D :D :D


Edit:
Anyone who has ever commented on my LJ, this post is about you!
And the ones that haven't, you're awesome too, as you don't make me feel guilty for being a lazy commenter, haha!

Comment to be added. :)
Comment with, how you know me, why you want to be added and one random thing about you. :)

Unless you're a bloody pervert just adding me to be a nosy fuck, then I'll most likely add you back. But ONLY if you comment here with the things above.
This edit may or may not be aimed at a complete idiot who cannot read and commented thinking I'd add him anyway. *rolls eyes*